3 posts tagged “friends”

By the date of my last post, it is self evident that I have taken far too long to post an update on anything that may be of interest to me, or you, or anyone else in particular who wandered onto this quaint little blogging space. To do so, I am prepared to rectify that with all due course.

Since my birthday, January 11th (which coincidentally enough, was when I last written here), little in my life has changed. I have made few friends, but those who I have befriended I am most fortunate to have met. Unfortunately, I have been far too busy with, I suppose personal projects is the correct term, to actually talk with them...or do much of anything for that matter. I would like to rectify that, but having a part time job consumes more time than people would presume and desire.

On the good side of things, I have gotten on better grounds with Peter. We are currently scheming on forming a weekly roleplaying game group. The awkwardness of such a move is painfully clear - playing with people I have little knowledge of, as well as the negative viewpoints of the pastime at least my parents posses on the matter. Regardless, the forming of such a group is very likely - whenever I intend on pursuing a new form of story telling, chances are I will give it a shot at least once.

My last novel, Kazoku, has been abandoned. The reasons for such is far too numerous to count, so let me summarize it as such: I just lose interest in it. I lost the love, the passion, for it. When that happens, its best to just move on. It is a hard thing to do - I spent a year of my life working on it. But it had to be done - other wise, I would of spent several more years working on something that would be a below quality product.

More to come soon. I hope to keep a much more up to date recording of my life and interests as they occur. Goodbye for now.

I will allow no man to narrow and degrade my soul by making me hate him.

I have decided to do a post documenting everyone who has had an impact on my life, thanking them for one reason or another.

Mom For not giving up on me when the so called professionals classified me as mentally retarded, and telling her I should be sent to a 'special' school. She refused, and insisted that I go to a normal school. She would spend three hours with me every day after school on the same stuff I learned, so I could get in my brain. Despite all my tantrums, she persisted, and it was because of her I could speak and write.

Dad Even though we butt heads on more than one occasion, and we practically fight tooth and nail, he is a good man, and someone I am proud to have for a father. He helps people without a second thought, right to the point of exhaustion. He puts his family first, before pleasure, and he would always play video games with, and for, me when I was little. I have great respect for him. He's not cool like I would wish, but he is an honorable person, and a good man.

Chris I remember when we were kids, me and Chris would always play video games together. Every day after school, we would have some massive gaming fest in the basement. We would argue, and bicker, but those were good times. More importantly, when I couldn't articulate my words, he would basically be my translator to mom. God knows how only he could understand grunts and screams. xD

Ryan Me and Ryan are an odd pair. He's more likely to play with Chris than he is with me, but when he's all depressed and stuff, he goes to me. So, I guess I'm thankful that he loves me enough to come to me when he needs me, and try to act cool and be another Cloud.

J.J. J.J was my first best friend. He didn't ignore me like all the other kids in Elementary would. I guess it was the fact he had just moved into the area, or perhaps I said outright to him 'Lets be friends!'. Whatever the reason is, he was my first friend, and I'd be damned if that isn't something to be thankful for.

Sergio I knew Sergio from Westwood Church, and he was good friends with me and Chris. I remember how one time, we locked Chris out of his house, and Chris knocked on the window so hard that he broke it, and ripped his palm. He had to get stitches and everything. I still feel bad about it. Around Middle School, he started to hang around with some bad kids.

I'm thankful to Sergio for two reasons - one, he showed me that Latin Americans aren't the mean kids I saw before hand. Alot of Latin Americans I encountered before him were not too nice towards me. My mom told me one time how a Mexican kid beat me up in the Park. So, Sergio showed me that skin color doesn't determine your personality.

And two, his dad was the very definition of cool. I'll let your minds decide for themselves what that means.

D.J. I really can't say much of D.J., mostly because I don't remember that much of him. I do remember how he was freakishly tall for kids his age. I guess In can thank him for being my only tall friend. *shrugs*

Kevin Liberty Kevin, like me, was somewhat isolated from society. He wasn't the best looking kid at school, and he didn't have the most money, although they certainly had a fair amount of it. The friends that he made mostly just tolerated him. The fact that he was friends with that 'weird kid' didn't help him so much. But Kevin didn't care! He was also a lot tougher than most kids, and if he wanted to be my friend, he was going to be my friend, and if anyone had a problem with it, he would kick their asses...and he did, on more than one occasion.

Kevin was the reason why it was so hard to leave SABIS and go to a public school. We still keep in touch, thanks to the wonders of AIM, but it still hurts when I think of him.

Jesse First off, his last name is Mosher, which I swear sounds like some rock and roll term. Anyways, we weren't terribly close, but he was a good friend to me, and very nice towards me. So, I guess I'm thankful for that.

Caitlin I really don't know how I can put this into words...basically, this has been the most tragic relationship I have ever been in. When I first moved to North Carolina from Massachusetts, I didn't have any friends. How ironic that at the same time, Caitlin moved three houses down. Its pretty obvious that we became good friends because of that.

I can say the high light of our relationship was during the first term. She would sit with me at Lunch everyday, even though it would just be the two of us, and more times than not we were so exhausted from school and life we wouldn't talk about anything. We would go to movies practically every other week. If it wasn't for Caitlin, I never would of have heard of Firefly or Serenity.

When she told me she was bi, I knew in my heart we could not before friends again. It wasn't simply because of her being bisexual, but it was because she lied to me. For so long she said she was straight. The fact that she lied to me for so long, I just couldn't accept it. We drifted after that.

I think Caitlin is the reason I sympathize with gays. Its my way of saying I'm sorry.

Kevin McCarty  Well, I knew that I would have to dedicate some post to him sooner or later. So, I guess I might as well do it now.

Its hard to put Kevin into a category of 'good' or 'bad'. We humans love to do that - it makes things simple. Kevin is very hard to put in either category. He did a lot of great things, but he also did a lot of bad stuff too.

I'll just focus on the good stuff. First off, he was a friend to me after me and Caitlin drifted apart. Caitlin was my only friend, so I was essentially alone. I don't remember how we first met - Kevin and I would argue about that when we were still buds. But, essentially, after our first conversation, I had a pretty good feeling we were gonna be friends.

And we were. We had our ups and downs - his negative views on Christianity being the worst - but for the most apart, we  got along pretty good. He didn't mind me holding onto one of his most treasured videogames for four months, so that had to say something.

Kevin introduced me to a lot of great people, in both real life and through the internet. He got me into anime. He got me to join OtakuBoards, which I can tell you right now, is one of the greatest things anyone has ever done for me.

Kevin was, and I dare say, still is, a good guy. We just, for one reason or another, drifted apart. We had a big fight when Summer started, and its safe to say we are no longer friends...and unless God decides to twist fate's strings and have me and Kevin be forced work together (like us being in the same class at UNCG when I transfer there, or us getting the same job somewhere, or some other insane event), I don't think we ever will be friends again.

But, you know what? I have no regrets. I am blessed to have Kevin as a friend for my final two years of High School. He taught me alot of things about people, and most importantly, myself. And that is the most important thing you can learn from any relationship.

Now that is done, let me move on my internet pals! :D

Galb/Prime This man is the only reason I still have Yahoo. My first, and only, adult pal, he was the organizer of this massively popular Warcraft RP. It was my first serious RP experience, and I still have found memories of it. I still say that it was the best RP experience I ever had, even higher than that of Citius Altius Fortius. Garshtnar Garwood (my Forsaken character I played as) remains in my heart as one of my most favorite characters.

Galb has always been an interesting person. He was my first real contact with D&D, that so called taboo game that I always knew about but never actually played. He showed me that D&D wasn't even close to being associated with the dark magic...unless you call saying 'Cast fireball' magical.

With him being atheist, we had our share of debates. But they would never be arguments. He was essentially my coach for when I would meet other like minded individuals.

Kitty Oh, how I adore this girl. I really do. Kitty is, in a word, awesome. She's just the very incarnation of 'I'm cool! Let's hang out!' The fact that she's an anime/video game geek, and is smoking hot, explains why. Plus, she was one of the first to join Citius Altius Fortius. That has to count for something, right?

And don't get me started on her perfect use of emoticons.

Tiana Now, if Kitty is like a cousin to me, then Tiana is like a sister to me. Its hard to explain how I can have these feelings someone I have never even met before, but I just care about her like that. And she cares about me in the same way. Now, we relate in the same way that me and Kitty, but our relationship goes deeper than that. Its very hard to explain.

Lazarus I swear to God, I am a clone of this fine example of human intelligence. We get along on everything, from movie interests to what we want out of Roleplays. The only thing I have disagreed with him on is his agnostic views. If we ever do meet, I am certain I will feel like I am staring at myself in the mirror.

No matter the cost, we need to meet.